when one door closes...

BYU comes calling.

ah ha! now I get it...

"You were not created to be the same as men. Your natural attributes, affections, and personalities are entirely different from these of a man. They consist of faithfulness, benevolence, kindness, and charity. They also balance the more aggressive and competitive nature of man. The business world is competitive and sometimes ruthless. We do not doubt that women have both the brain power and the skills to compete with men. But by competing they must of necessity, become aggressive and competitive. Thus their godly attributes are diminished and they acquire a quality of sameness with man. The conventional wisdom of the day would have you be equal with men. We say, we would not have you descend to that level."

-President Ezra Taft Benson
(Stolen from Mormon in Manhattan)

See?!? The aggressive and competitive traits that I possess are qualities that I have developed out of necessity...I am that way because I've had to rely on myself for financial support. In my adult life, I have not had someone else provide for me. So I have gotten competitive. It's what had to be done to help me make it. So don't tell me that I'm too competitive...it's called survival.

But don't doubt for a second that I don't recognize that I need to develop better faithfulness, benevolence, kindness, and charity. I'm just still on the journey, trying to figure out how best to balance my life...

cozy cuddly

Check this out: Cozy Cuddly

Now buy one.

Although I may be a little biased because I
happen to know the seamstress, I think they are adorable!

project life

I must first confess that I stole this whole idea from simply satisfied, as she is superior minded in the creativity department. And although I had to copy-cat her, I'm excited to say that I am actually looking forward to Project Life for a variety of reasons:

• I was recently encouraged to really spend some time thinking about what makes me happy in life!
• I never take pictures. In fact, the only camera I have is actually one that I bought as a gift for someone else...but I'm always wishing I did.
  
• I am not as gifted and talented as my mother and sisters in the scrapbooking department, so this gives me an easy way out.
• I think it'll be fun to see what my year has been like when all is said and done.

Now the only question is kit or digital??? Advice? Please leave your suggestions...

better days to come

I have had such a good week.

It all started last Friday night...

Newness
Excitement
Laughing
Singing
Dancing
Talking
Relishing
Beginning
Hoping
Loving it!

Evolution of Dance

Storms--Fleetwood Mac

I love this song:
Every night that goes between
I feel a little less
As you slowly go away from me
This is only another test

Every night you do not come
Your softness fades away
Did I ever really care that much
Is there anything left to say

Every hour of fear I spend
My body tries to cry
Living through each empty night
A deadly calm inside

I haven't felt this way I feel
Since many a year ago
But in those years and the lifetimes past
I did not deal with the road

And I did not deal with you I know
Tho the love has always been
So I search to find an answer there
So I can truly win

Every hour of fear I spend
My body tries to cry
Living through each empty night
A deadly calm inside

So I try to say
Goodbye my friend
I'd like to leave you with something warm
But never have I been a blue calm sea
I have always been a storm
always been a storm
ooh always been a storm
I have always been a storm

We were frail

She said,
"Every night he will break your heart"
I should have known from the first
I'd be the broken-hearted

I loved you from the start
Save us...
And not all the prayers in the world -- could save us